so much has happen within my virtual absence, i'm sure everyone agrees. 2012 was like a bullet train to me, yet every moment was appreciated to the fullest. moments of joy, tears, slack, work. i'll be moving 2 times in the next 2 weeks, one just nearby, and the other abroad. i'm so excited for new beginnings but in the same time, i will always cherish everything in the past. there's so many photos to be screened, and stories/events/testimonies...

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maybe it's finally time to not run away from this blog.maybe it's fine that i deleted 170 blogs from my google reader recently, just because i need a time out. and somehow because i feel that if the blogs i used to subscribe to really matter, i'll remember their link.... or to google their link, and i would subscribe to them again when i restart.maybe it's okay to feel hurt from the way things are, and how some friends are....

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Went back to my high school's CF makan. It's an annual event, the last CF meeting of the year. Was blessed to be able to share a short testimony on how I was transformed from an incredibly shy and fearful girl, to someone brave enough to stand and speak in public; on how the blood, sweat and tears shed while I served was worth it; and how I considered lives changed a complete joy; all this I thank God because it happened during...

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I spent quarters of the morning hours, contemplating, lashing my frustration/thoughts to my parents... whether or not to participate in an upcoming piano competition.Until I heard the sound of the postmen's motorcycle engine, my heart was confident that mail was for me: and indeed it was.My piano exam' results. Here. Now. Then. Wow.My fingers quickly yet gently tore the seal open, and as I took out...

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Just finished writing this down. Planning to read 1 fresh book per week until end of the year. Ironically if we count Dec 31st-Jan 6th as the last week, then I would have read 19 books which would be my age then! Hehe. Funny how as I grow up I read more non-fictional books. But also less time and passion to read compared to years ago, sadface. Anyhow, why 1 book per week....? As the title is 12345, I'm here to share what I've...

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it was a fun day... dealing mostly with clothes. today i spent most of the day continuing the de-cluttering process of my clothes.. and it's really time-consuming to try on some outfits, & look at the mirror to think whether i still need 'em... but really it's a rewarding process when i feel like i'm letting go of what i don't need anymore, and allowing other people that need/want them to be able to enjoy them!! :D i cleared...

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I apologize for the crappy pic quality, hopefully soon I'll be uploading good quality pics again! No longer iPod.. Found this wristband I had since years ago. Can't remember when, and I don't know if "livestrong" has any other meaning.. But to me it's very empowering. Wearing this for the rest of the week. Hopefully when I'm demotivated... looking at it will encourage me. Life's a walk, a climb, a fight. Be strong because...

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(Monday, 20.08) Just one of the things I bought today. It's been long since I bought so much stuff. I can't disclose the total damage done! BUT POPULAR'S BOOK FEST @ KLCC 2012 IS AMAZINGGG So many books, and books, and stationeries, and stuffs, and CROWD ! nicely organised really. Great experience for anyone. I'm so thankful for my cousins who brought me there. And because of my neice, we ate pizza hut for lunch and KFC...

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it's 1.27am and i should be running freely in dreamland.. but my tummy made empty urges... and i spiced up the weirdest supper combo ever! bak choy, milo, & a banana?!! yolo... XD since last midnight i was dream-catching. every day this year i've been collecting tons of inspirations & had composed dreams (in my mind) during the free time i had.. & finally i'm penning down several small & big dreams that...

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Top 2: Korean set lunch! Finally, 1st time trying out DaeJangGum @ Taipan! Worth it, only RM13 and it's filling to the core. Bottom 2: Bazaar for dinner! It's a bum that I've missed out the crowd. Yet the remaining stalls are still delish. Satay, lemang, ayam, apam balik.... Classic! Yummy day. The streets are half empty, safer to drive for an amateur like me, hehe. Almost every time before I drive I seek God for protection.......

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"So, was it romantic walking under the rain?" My father is the funniest !! " let the rain fall down, and wake my dreams. let it wash away, my sanity " indeed, the rain woke me up :')...

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currently i'm lying on my bed, contemplating whether to continue sinking into the depths of this book, which i stole today. interestingly, i'm not that guilty. the first chapter is already so painful to bear. such immediate revealing details, unlike the movie. come, tell me my rm25 flats was a steal. comfortable, above all. nobody will ever understand, but really, i can't wait to leave a place where i'm sinking. deep down...

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(15.08.12) Collected my baby camera today, back from the hospital. Can't wait to execute pictures my mind has been dreaming of. Distance really made my heart grew fonder. Tried my first Chicken Foldover today! Yum Yums. Extremely bloated after, sigh, my tummy needs time to grow back it's appetite. Also, drove on the highway today.. Last time I did that was a long time ago. Malaysia is crowded with bizarre drivers!!...

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(counter clockwise) 1. Thank God I'm finally healed from random sicknesses I've had for the past 2 weeks! They happened consecutively but some overlapped which was like double illness? boo. I went to the doctor's 5 times in 2 weeks, which is more than the amount of me seeing the doctor in the past 2 years!! Say what. Here's what it was (in order, somewhat): Neck stiffness, flu, one-sided head pain, mild food poisoning, sensitive...

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(20/07/2012, Friday) the picture below is what's in front of me now. i'm guilty of floor mess. 'desperate' is the word. i'm desperate for the healing of my neck i'm desperate for me to play the piano better i'm desperate for me to sleep earlier each day there's a pool of inspirations and a beach of worries on my mind, how contradictory Claire, focus ....

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writing/receiving cards make me happy. does anyone gets excited with letters like me? - today i was fed up with 2 different customer service i received. guess it's a hard line to work in.... but i think that they should always service with a smile. not literally but technically. - drove around a few areas around USJ. bumped into a corner pavement, didn't see it coming. pretty minor but still... shocked. scared. shattered. .....experience. -...

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Tonight, if you don't have Diptic in your iPhone/iPod/iPad yet, go install it, because it's FREE! :D for a week or something idk but i've just been so happy since ytd when I accidentally found out that it is free at the moment ! usually it costs $0.99 or $1.99 ! I found out about this app months ago and wanted so bad to get it because it could make the edges of images round, just like the previous post's image! but I didn't...

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(17.07.12, Tuesday) can you see past the weariness in my eyes, will you take me by the hand and tell me that everything will turn out fine, like always? in a world so judging and harming, will you remain trusting me, and will i likewise? - not drinking enough water = weird faeces . weird sleeping / sitting position = back ache . excessive durian = tummy ache . abnormal crave for tomyum, prawnmee, & kimchi = unsatisfied...

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(13.07.2012) i hope the picture doesn't scare you as how it somehow scares me regardless of how physically weak i feel, my mind has been very actively collecting inspirations : through learning from incidents through passionate people through remembering dreams ; 2 Fridays from now i'll be meeting my London examiner there's a set of things i'm incredibly anticipating to do after that these last days are gonna be intense i...

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Today we finally finished clearing the old house.. Including bringing the fishes over.. Honestly I never expected them to leave.. As u can see from the picture, the 2 fishes floating on top are already dead. The 1 on the bottom was still alive. But as I'm writing this, the only 1 left is already floating... Yet still breathing. The way he(or she) is fighting for his life really, really touches me. - So I drafted the above...

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Lemme explain counter clockwise! 1. Went to KLCC for the 2nd time this year. It's wow, because I've been there less than 10 times my whole life! Time to camouflage myself as a tourist. 2. The main purpose was to watch a family orchestra called "Orchestra from Planet X"! Super funny because it's catered to family, which means loads of kids, hence there were 2 mime performers as Aliens to shake up the usual serious, quiet audience....

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(07.07.2012) Meet Sam, Alicia, and Grace. Together their initials spell G.A.S.! Rawr. Great evening attending church service with them, & I signed up for Emerge KL 2012 with Aly, I'm slowly getting stoked about it ! We ate Thai food, Grace bought muruku(s), then we wandered in Mr.D.I.Y., and talked (and laughed) endlessly about the most random things. It's just plain, cosy company to me! - This morning I've also been...

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(picture will be uploaded as soon)tonight has been the most magical night, and if i don't write now, i fear i may forget what i'm feeling this instance, and whatever post after this attempting to describe what i feel now, could not match thence death cab for cutie's transatlanticism is calming me,as my fingers knit these this song will never get old, it's beauty transcends a thousand pop songsto...

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I'm sorry to say I will always dread consuming pumpkin. I'm delighted to say that I will always anticipate munching onto garlic bread. By pumpkin I mean, pumpkin soup, pumpkin desert, pumpkin pie, pumpkin bread....... & by garlic I also mean raw garlic, steam garlic, fried garlic..... And you've just wasted about a minute(or less) of your time reading this totally useless post!...

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This picture is incredibly hilarious to my brother and I.... because he took it and he claims that my facial expression is somewhat similar to one of the trollface expression!Daddy's birthday today. Dimsum in a big restaurant with only us as customers (pretty cool). Dinner at home with champagne which I could only stand a sip (ha).RT Cheesecake with an extremely rich cheesy taste.all these but most memorably:Laughter and...

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i've been driving a tiny bit lately.. and today i, myself, caused my, first knock for overestimating the space (in contact with the house gate, while trying to reverse in).............. literally in 'sad face' mood now. so this is how it feels like after your first bump. i need to buck up on my "reverse(s)" and parkings ! (i can't let my younger brother laugh at me anymore) p/s: he literally came to the 'rescue' by directing...

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(01.07.2012, Sunday) so i'm deleting all these apps till i need 'em again.... app' spring cleaning lol ! the most apps i have are related to photography. so hard to delete even one of those. bummed. ...

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(30.06.2012, Sat) What's your story? Everyone has one. Or tons. Today I am greatly reminded that everyone's life story is so uniquely personal.. And being able to meet different kinds of people who share various stories... Is just plain amazing. Some people are like an open book, and some a reserved soul. Either way everyone's incredible, just because. Cheers to the beautiful strangers that we are bound to meet! p/s:...

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(29.06.12, Sat) Yay! Tiny trip to Puchong to visit le Sher at her baking academy :3 1. Random car stories/jokes = Interesting 2. Lovely smell of butter in the academy = Gah! 3. Ate Lei Char for the first time during lunch at a coffee shop name Double D (LOL) = I'm sorry.... The name's just wrong to me x) 4. Finally bought clothes railing at Giant Puchong = Yipeee! Just a nice afternoon to Puchong, with ze fav bunch of...

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" now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see " ( hebrews 11:1 ) " it is a deliberate decision to put one's full trust in the character of God to do what He has promised " ...

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"你有信心吗？＂ ......... My piano teacher asked me this morning. Today marks One month countdown until my judgement day on 27/07. I actually didn't reply her question. Truth is, I'm not done with the exam syllabus. My fingers slip quite often into a pool of mistakes. I'm nervous. I procrastinate. Yet I do have sprinkles of confidence within me. After class this morning I came home and had my butt glued on the piano seat..........

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The Chinese words on the picture says "Tomorrow It Will Be Better". My dad taught me that. Hayley William's song 'Breathe' has part of a lyric that goes something like this: "Breathe for love tomorrow, for there's no hope for today." Today was a decent day but weirdly I'm not in the best of mood now. Hence, tomorrow is a great reminder that there will be a brand new 24 hours to appreciate. Thank God. ...

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(25.06.2012, Monday) Spontaneous last minute decision with mummy to watch the Queensland Youth Symphony perform at Dewan Filharmonik Petronas, KLCC! The hall was described as glorious by the conductor! Really, beautiful. The pianist was quite adorable! Got my fangirl moment during the interval... Picture and autograph... Hehehe. Splendid. Great acoustics in the hall. Funny crowd that claps endlessly (culture?). Them youths...

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I drew to express my emotions. It doesn't make sense, just playing around. After my piano exams I have so many things I wanna do, including experimenting with art. But right now I need to put my head into the game. I need to embrace this process. I need to stop wishing it away. I had a 'wake up call' dream last night. Honestly I've been practicing. Honestly it's not enough. Honestly I need to prioritise more. Honestly...

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(23.06.12, Sat) You know sometimes when a friendship/relationship didn't work out, you still secretly wish the other party their best, and part of you still cares no matter how you try not to, or how people usually attempt to ignore their true feelings? Why do people behave that way? Why do some people in our lives go back to becoming strangers to us? The first stage? Why do they rip off the little of what's left of what...

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So my plan of stacking boxes succeeded (mentioned in yesterday's post). Today is officially Claire's most tiring day in 2012. ...

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Set this picture as my iPod's lock screen, so that every time I intend to procrastinate, I'll be somewhat reminded that I should be practising instead. Focus. This picture was taken this morning at my family's new humble home. One empty house with only a piano, it felt like I was performing on stage where the sound was so loud, clear, and echoey. Creepy at first, but it felt wow later on. Packing commences. I don't know how...

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Packing my jewellery and couldn't resist taking a picture of this. Found so much old stuff etc. camp and event participation name tags! To throw or not. Why do humans cling onto things? I don't know if it makes sense but I'm clearing stuff and thinking ahead, like whether the 25-year-young Claire would throw away said items. Or will the 57-year-old Claire be grumpy if there are mountains of unnecessary stuff compiled over...

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Mum bought a tripod for me that cost RM199. The funny thing is that I keep pondering whether it's worth it. Like normal girls my age would probably be buying fashionable stuffs(which i would want) and I'm getting a tripod. Opportunity cost. Whether or not this investment will be worth it. The cost of it is not a lot to some people but to me it is.. The sacrifices we make for our dreams. p/s: free peacock jewellery from...

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right now i'm a jumble: thoughts dreams inspirations priorities situations timing emotions. incidents have opened my eyes: the kind the dark differences love grace. friends crushed friends lifted up friends that changed so inevitably taking baby steps pushing every fibre of strength hope faith hello world, i'm on this beautiful broken process towards my destination hello blog, maybe i won't give up on you just yet p/s...

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Dear blog (and blog readers), I came back from kangarooland on Tuesday night and I'm going to Malacca today for a youth camp until Saturday. Everything's happening so fast and I'm sorry I haven't update for many days. Wait for me. Thank you. God bless. x (I doubt there's wifi, so toodle...

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A day full of new actions. Tied my hair up like that today, after realising it's long enough. It looks a little out of place but it's a new style which I'll learn more (tying high buns etc.) Wore new sheer stockings and boots that was bought just yesterday! Got new leg sores due to friction of ankle with the uncomfortable boots! Boo! Bought new souvenirs! (wait how can souvenirs bought ever be old?!) Tried something...

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Went to the Australian National Maritime Museum today... Been long since I've been to one. So little time, insufficient to explore much actually. But what moved me was to read some history about Titanic. Listening to a tour guide imparting knowledge about a WW2 ship named Vampire when we literally toured around the massive ship... was cool. I will go back. I must. When we came back to the apartment, this spectacular view was...

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It's the 150th day of the year. Celebrate by counting your joys. Today I'm happy because: 1. Central Station: Taking public transport is a tad bit expensive but the journey is exciting. Trams especially, since we don't have that in Malaysia!! 2. Zinc Cafe: Ah! Seeing this puts a smile on my face because it reminded me of some close friends back home. My nickname is 'zinc' to some of them, and see, I apparently own a cafe...

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Feeling stable right now in 2 ways: my family finally bought a stable portable wifi thingy that allows decent internet connection as previous attempts to associate with Internet sadly failed, and also, am feeling not so homesick as the past few days, hence, secured ! (holiday in Sydney now) Will be blogging with pictures taken from my iPod this whole trip. Yay exciting change! Tonight while walking across this view I felt...

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This photo is funny in reasons only we'll understand.Tonight was one of the funniest outings I had this year. Number points for summary: Undecided for what to eat, discussed western japanese asian choices and ended up in a cute small korean outlet !!! Discovered my very very hyper obsession for pretty shoes and rings, not good at all ! Self-control for not buying.  Random random random roaming around heeee Caught a glimpse...

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ignore my weird face, the angle is unflattering for me hahaha, but this picture is really priceless.. (out)comfort = out of comfort zone Tonight I stepped out of my comfort zone and decided that letting a waiter take a picture is perfectly fine Not caring what others think When they look at us Because nobody else normally would ask the waiter..... I mean cause it's just some normal dinner... But because the memory is for...

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Of the most random place to take a group picture ever! Of calling it our usual place. Of the most last minute form 5 class (or a quarter of the class) reunion. Of bumping into 2 other friends. Of gold chili and snowflakes. Of random conversations. Of being inspired by Shufei's "Of......." !...

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So this is how HappyG looks when he is enjoying a car ride.We brought him for his first grooming ever!This is the before picture. No after picture sorry, heh. He came home smelling the best he could ever smell. And being the most handsome dog in the neighbourhood ! Seriously, all dogs barks at him and he never barks at them when they do. I smell jealous...

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I don't know what I would be without him. Through taking care of him I have learned things that I'll never learn elsewhere. Gave him this bone today and he was munching it like it's the most important thing he has to do! I recorded a video too! Constantly reminded that as a human being, I have my family, loads of friends and people I can mingle around with. But for my dog (and all dogs), we're literally all that they have. &...

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To my most beautiful mu...

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I finished this book in the wee morning. Memorable quotes:  "But the things that we feel most deeply we ought to learn to be silent about, at least until we have talked them over thoroughly with God." (p.60)  "Do something for somebody else. No matter who or where you are, there is something you can do, somebody who needs you. Pray that you may be an instrument of God's peace, that where there is loneliness you...

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I have a love-hate relationship with McD. When I was in primary 6, I stayed back everyday after class until 6pm. McD was nearby, and the people I used to hang with went there constantly. For everything and anything. & 7-11. For snacks, and mainly cup mee. Seriously I think I drank more than 100 cups of McD coke that whole year.... and excluding the frequent free refills? At least 1 refill each time. If only I loathed...

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