Is anyone as excited to receive post, just like me?

I have become the one who collects letters, leaflets, and leaves from the mailbox daily.

Today this came when the postmen rang my doorbell !!!! Still dressed with my night gown, I quickly and frantically changed into whatever shirt and shorts I could get my hands on, then I rushed to grab this evenlope.

Registered Post International ! Hello...... You don't get this everyday :D
I attempted to figure which of my oversea friends would post me anything, but as I realize it was just a confirmation letter of my university deferment, I laughed.

Monash Melbourne is really really really good at marketing. I've already received my deferment confirmation  to 2 e-mails, and they now post me the exact same thing !

Makes me wonder whether I should go to Monash or not............... !

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Attended Acts Church' Sunday Service for the first time.

It was their 12 anniversary today. It was indeed an ACTSperience, haha.

Came home to found out on Facebook, that one of my friend visited the church too!! Shocked as I didn't get to see him. Probably because the church is filled with sooo many people that it was impossible for us to meet even just for a split second. Haha.


I've been hungry for change in my life.
Today I experienced some joy of it.

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This was the garden where I roamed around when I was about 6 to 11 years old.

Everything was larger to me back then. Walking around my backyard was like taking a stroll in the jungle, such adventure......

I remembered plucking weeds. Walking in the longkang outside with my daddy for fun: he was gardening, I was "helping". Catching my rabbit when it's time to put her back into the cage. Catching my chickens (yes, for real...) too.

So many memories attached to this old house:
3 birthday parties. Watching Cantonese dramas non-stop. My first piano. Awesome lunches cook by my maid. Primary school. Ballet classes. Piano lessons. Playing in the sandbox. Sharing bedroom with my brother........

and all other vague pieces of the past, left in the unconscious mind.
I, am unintentionally reminded that my childhood was bittersweet, leaning more towards the sweet.


We went back to our old house today for the final clearance of stuff inside. For the past 8-9 years the house was rent out. This month, we're finally gonna let go. Despite so much unwillingness in the heart. Letting go, even of a property, or a non-living item in life is not easy. Because there's a string of nostalgic memories attached to it, that we just somehow find comfort upon remembering them. And we dwell in it, even just for some moment.............. Life?

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Period cramps, y u so pain ?!! :(

On the 55th day of 2012, I spent most of my time snuggling with my comfy blanket above ! Just to beat off the horrible feeling of the cramps, and to rejuvenate from all my energy that seems to be absorbed away.


I am reminded of several ways to reduce menstrual pain:

1. Minimize consumption of cold food and drinks.
2. Minimize consumption of cooling fruits (etc. Pineapple, Guava..)
3. Exercise regularly.
4. Drinking some Chinese herbal thing call "pak zhan" when the period finishes each month.
5. Consuming Bak Foong pills.
6. Sleeping early and waking up early.
7. Bathing with warm water.

I hereby promise (or attempt to) fulfill most of what I just mentioned. Feeling down, low and unproductive, while experiencing the cramps....... just makes me feel blehhhh. No more pink Panadol tablets because it should be unhealthy in the long run ! I've also consulted some of my friends who take Bak Foong pills... they say it really works but is it like, really healthy? Hmmms.

Any other ways you know that could reduce menstrual pain ?

besides removing the female reproductive organ.......... mehhh :(

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1st meeting in 2012.

14-15 years of friendship,
and still counting !

Words cannot describe how much I treasure her.

It's hard sometimes, to make effort to fork time out to catch up in life.
But whether it's once a month, once every two months: it's always worth it because we'll miss each other already ! (or maybe just me, heh)

So which old friend do you need to catch up with ?

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What is your vision.......?

My physical vision has been blurred a bit by my right spectacle as it is filled with scratches (process of fixing it).

But putting physical vision aside, let's talk about Vision; a target, a goal, a view of what is hope for.

We all need a vision. For our future, for our dreams, for our life.
It's important to make sure that our vision is not limiting us, but leading us ahead.

Having a vision is not enough, but walking, working and fighting hard to fulfill it means everything.
Through my spectacles the scratches and tainted blurs caused my physical vision to be affected slightly.
Same goes to life, I realize, that criticisms and people can cause us to lose our vision.

But we just gotta replace a new lens (change the way we see things), in order to reach where we are meant to reach.

Remember, to change the Way we see things, not What we see. For our Vision should be enforced regardless of circumstances.

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Finally went to my secondary school to collect my SPM and English 1119 certificate today !

So many memories flooded regarding high school.

Academically, friendships wise................. and everything.

Sad to have heard today that a (once) close friend of mine is attempting to wipe out all connections with previous high school mates.

Why do people change so much after leaving secondary school ?


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Have you ever cried so hard till your heart hurts?

It was my first time experiencing it tonight.
Previously the maximum of physical pain or pressure I've ever felt from crying was to the extend of feeling that my soul has been torn apart, or that my bones were continuously shattering.


But to literally feel that my heart, was hurting to the core of it, or to say being aligned in the same outburst of pain my cry was unleashing......... it was so, awakening.
Awakening to a sense, that I realize I was thinking too much to have reached that emotionally overwhelming stage.
Awakening to a sense, that I could somehow understand, or catch just a glimpse of what it feels like to directly lose someone I've loved with all my heart.
Awakening to a sense, that I came to a conclusion that because of what I felt, the reason I have cried to must be so dang fudging important to me.

Which is true.


I cried tonight because of Lost:

#1. Once upon a time I had a massive dream about music. Along the years I was blurred from the vision I had. Meeting a new piano teacher tonight, I am reminded that my piano playing is rusty. The fact that I've stopped learning Grade 7 in 2008, and leaping to pursue Grade 8 practical exam in 2012 (out of a sudden)....... is a massive leap of faith. I would blame myself over again for losing pieces of my passion for music previously, if not I could have fought hard since the early years to excel in it. I don't ever want to lose music again. I can't. I've already lost ballet. And ice-skating. Which I will find again one day.

 #2. Remembering my grandpa, driving instructor and distant friend who moved on from life on earth... my heart breaks. Additionally, remembering that it took me more than months, or even a year to finally accept the fact that my old dog was lost (partly my fault)........ was excruciatingly hard. The truth is when you lose a friend, a lover, or a family member due to some argument/misunderstanding........... with one phone call or many measures to re conciliate: SETTLED. But when you lose someone to death, and when you lose an animal in real life, by no means, there is no way to settle it....... but just to pray, and to painstakingly leave the lost behind. No, I did not have any argument/misunderstanding with my grandpa, driving instructor, distant friend or my dog.... I just had words/things of appreciation unsaid :')  

To learn to appreciate everyone more in the future.

I'm fine now.
All this makes me a stronger person.
I needed this to be discipline.
& the lesson learned to be carved into my flesh and blood, in order to carry what I lost to be within me, in order to overcome of what's not with me.


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Can you see what my dog is doing?

My dog (HappyG) is such a humble creature.

He was just observing the birds out there, without barking at them.

Honestly... when it reaches the day where life separates me and him, I'll seriously cry like no other.

Having experiencing 3 pet dogs in the past...... this dog is the most obedient and likable by everyone.

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Today marks a great day for my family. A deal was secured, hoho.

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